Sunday, August 24, 20085:28 AM
■ I Want to Shout to the World.. "I wana be AlonE!"
when the sky opens up in the day.
i wish to be alone in the room.
to be safe under the covers.
nv to be disturbed.
when the sky starts to close in again,
i wish to be alone in this world.
rite under this blanket of stars and a shinnin moon.
i wish to feel the fresh air blow against my face.
when the rain starts to fall,
i wish to be in that corner,
where u cant see me.
where the rain cant reach me in anyway.
i wish to be hidden dry and warm away from u.
when the clouds formed into shapes,
in shapes of animals, objects, abstract forms, human forms,
i wish to be there on that piece of green green land,
staring up at the sky,
counting the animals,
watching them fade.
alone.. with the kites flying high far away.
when the sky closes in, when the rain starts to fall,
when the wind stops blowing and thunder starts to rule the sky.
wher the lightning is the light for the nite.
i wish to be there to witness this magnificant scenery.
the coldness of the rain.
the wet drops of the rain.
jus like the coldness in the heart,
the wet drops of tears from the eyes.
the sky changes,
like how humans change.
the wind stops blowing.
like how ppl stop caring for others.
the lightning strikes and shines,
on the lies and the true faces of humans i noe.
the thunder sounded and roar out to the world,
jus like the truths tucked under the cushion of lies,
that finally floats up and speaks the truths.
the rain falls drop by drop,
jus like how my tears start to form,
at the corner of the eyes.
and starts to invade the whole face.
the nature forms a whole new story everytime it is a different weather.
the emotions flow everytime different things happen to me.
the hands have stopped trying to lead them on.
the legs have slowed down and stopped leading the rest.
the head held high once, bends down to face the ground.
the heart once burning red, now turns black while blood drains out.
while apathy starts to come and invade it.
taking over it, i feel like a robot.
being manipulated by many. being controlled by many.
being used by many. my heart has given up.
like a fool i noe i was. to listen to their songs of lies.
never would i have thought this is what i am.
a merely simple puppet.
moved by strings. every movement.
by all means and ways.
for now the darkness is my refuge,
the shadows are my frens.
loneliness is my comfort.
the silence is music to me.
the people are just items once again.
the trust i had once held for u now turns to ash,
gets blown away by the wind.
grain by grain like the sand.
the rain washes them away.
the trust. once so strong.
is now weakened. and thrown.
this is the thing i gave to u..
the ashes u are asking for.
the past has spoke the true reasons for u.
the present has shown me the picture.
the future is a movie i will play to show the others.
of this miserable life i once led.
tomorrow is another day.
a new day we shall look forward to.
im seekin for u..
