Tuesday, August 26, 20087:55 AM
■ to U, u and U..
to everyone in the world who is having problem at this very moment..
just wanna post this..
everyone, in life would have to face hard times in certain phases of their lives
that we all noe.
the onli ting we dunoe is wad kinda situations would we be in?
how long would it take us to find a solution?
how painful would it be for us?
what kinda lessons would we learn through this painful experience?
what do we want to achieve at the end of it all?
we all have the same thinking on the problem itself.
but what we dun have is the same way to solve this problem.
it might be the same problem that u and i would be facing.
bt in the end, u and i would hv a different solution.
tt makes two of us. tt makes a difference.
for every winding road that we take,
we take with caution,
we do not know wads there at the next turn,
we do not noe wad we might approach at the next bend.
we might collide into the sign posts.
we might have a collision with another object or living thing.
we might even drive off the course.
one thing for certain,
we will never noe wad will happen in the end at all.
at times, like u, i wish i cud solve all the problems tat i myself am facing.
at times, i even thought of running away frm it.
bt at the end of the day, it still comes back to me.
i truly hate it. but thers nothing i can do to make it go away at all.
nothing can be done. the more i try to run away, the faster it gets to me.
and wen i dun tink of it, it always stays with me.
i always believe there is a rainbow after every rainfall.
that there is a light in every darkness.
that there is a door to every empty house.
that there is a key to that forgotten window.
it pains me to noe tt i will nv have the answer to every question in life.
it pains mi to noe that i will have to suffer in silence.
cos i cant speak.
for once i speak, pandora will open.
everything will turn bad.
and i do not wan tt to happen at all.
tt i do not wan things to be destroyed.
wan things to be gone.
thats the last ting i wan to see or do.
im Fing irritated now.
cos i cant seem to find the answer to this mystery of life.
i cant seem to get a hold of myself.
i cant seem to be able to stand tall enuff to look over the rest.
im hiding from others.
im running away.
this burden is too heavy for u to bear.
im willing to hold it for u..
but are u willing to go through this road with me?
im afraid u might let go of my hands at the end of the day and say u give up.
im afraid u will do wad u used to do. to run away and come back crying for help.
im tired of this continous mistakes tt ppl do to me.
im tired of forgiving and forgettin the rubbish u gave to me.
but i have to do it, for i do not wan to hate ppl.
nor make them my foe.
i do not wan u to turn into a history like many others whom i nv got to forgive.
u make mi feel like giving up on u,
u make mi wan to hate u forever.
im willing to let go..
if u are willing to risk it.
if u will jus show mi one last nonsense!
i will give u the treatment u gave to me.
i will make sure u get wad u get.
karma runs ard with me,
karma runs ard with u.
karma makes sure wad goes up, mus come down.
we all noe tt..
i dun have a specific topic to talk abt...
these are jus my random thoughts.
and u're hurtin mi rite now. real bad..
u dun noe abt this.
bt i noe a million things u tink i shud not know.
tt consists of u, u and U...
im nt blind nor am i deaf..
im a fool in ur eyes, but no fool to myself.
nonchalant cussing..
im talkin to myself to reason out everything.
to try and make u look like a beautiful picture
bt u end up as a splat of paint on the paper.
is this really me?
call me fake i dun care.
say i wear a mask,
i dun give a damn too..
im ignoring the world rite now..
no amt of nudgin would help....
my head is hurting...
Mood today : Busy :O
