Wednesday, September 10, 20089:37 AM
■ im standing alone
this is me feeling down.
this is me being who i am as usual.
im feeling all alone in this world while i try to sort everything out.
trying to get everyting in place.
trying to get all the solution for all the problems.
but i cant handle it myself at all.
i know i hv limits.
i noe everyone has their own limits.
i feel so tired.
i feel so worn out.
i feel as if i would not be able to accomplish the things that i wan to get done.
i feel as if the sky is going to fall down straight on me.
i feel that theres nothing i can do anymore.
the feeling of hopelessness.
terrible feeling that i have.
it jus never seem to get away at all.
nothing seemed to be able to make it go away.
nothing seemed to be able to make mi laugh and joke like normal again.
i do not know the real me anymore.
i do not know myself anymore.
the sound of the shower covered my screams and my sniffles.
the droplets of water from the shower washes away the saltish tears i let out.
the water flows down and clears my mind.
why am i crying?
i do not know. i have no idea.
i do not want to know about anything.
i do not want to care about alot of things.
i think nothing matters anymore.
whether it be said or not.
nothing matters anymore.
at all.
its redundant alreadi.
to the point that i dun even wan to tink about anything or care for anyone.
im tired.
and stuck but i ned to keep moving forward.
i'll try to be optimistic :)
