Monday, December 29, 20085:59 AM
■ Choked.
Again. Ive proved to myself that i get overly sensitive.
that i over react over the smallest issues in life.
i let things get to me too quickly and react without even thinking.
when the stuff really doesnt concern me at all.
and in the end, when things realli get out of hand,
den do i realise, i am actually not in the same page as the other party.
sometimes its not that i wanna be like tt.
bt it is in my personality..
yeah go ahead and blame my personality and shit.
Chun, this is not the way to go man.. So damn wrong.
sometimes i feel as if im not being understood thoroughly.
or rather i dun make ppl understand well enough.
that i over react over the smallest issues in life.
i let things get to me too quickly and react without even thinking.
when the stuff really doesnt concern me at all.
and in the end, when things realli get out of hand,
den do i realise, i am actually not in the same page as the other party.
sometimes its not that i wanna be like tt.
bt it is in my personality..
yeah go ahead and blame my personality and shit.
Chun, this is not the way to go man.. So damn wrong.
sometimes i feel as if im not being understood thoroughly.
or rather i dun make ppl understand well enough.
i duno which way does it go though.
many times i feel so hopeless. with no directions to where to turn to.
many times i feel so hopeless. with no directions to where to turn to.
im graspin for that small amount of air.
to try and survive.
to breathe and move ard freely.
not always living in the world of fear.
not in the world of self doubt and paranoia.
the life i live in, is so depressed cos i caused it to be this way.
i cant live in this depressing moments anymore.
i got to move on and live it to the fullest.
ive got big dreams,
ppl i love and all ard me who wans mi to be happy and crazy.
haha.. chun..
take this down.
note to self..
be who u truly are.
and not be a hermit anymore.
party like u nv wanna party.
laugh like u have nv laugh before.
cry with joy like u have tonnes of tears.
this is the way life shud be.
wheres the cheerful old chun...
whers the old me?!
get out and have fun ppl.
this yr is comin to an end and soon we are goin to throw the bad stuff behind.
2009!! Here i COME!!
~i am my beloved and my beloved is mine
