Wednesday, March 4, 20097:52 PM
■ i should never have..
i shud never have trusted anyone.
the things i tell.
the things they say.
it doesnt tally.
it sways.
its like lies.
its like flies.
all i wish was to swat them.
and kick them into that dam.
see them drown and struggle.
jus like how they all made me.
i shud never have trusted their words.
i shud have based everything on my own judgement.
but i trusted them too.
which is wad made me walk the wrong path.
this wrong choice.
a mistake made.
makes me realise.
i have to turn to myself at all times.
in the darkest hours of my broken life.
this is wher i found the reality.
the true things that lingered within this soul.
which i have never realize till i made mistakes.
i shud have based everything on my own views.
and not hers.
cos i noe him too.
i was close to him too.
but tings are meant to be.
things are fated in this.
we strive to fight for wad we wan.
we fight and long to get wad we need.
we all noe the difference between a need and want.
seriously now.
i need and want it back badly.
with it. i am myself.
without it.
im jus a living dead corpse.
he doesnt noe.
cos im hiding in this cave of mine.
im fading from this wonder world.
this lil fantasy of mine.
got crashed.
and im tryna build it all up again..
once more..
im tryna learn from this again..
another year..
i hope not..
its tough. but im still hanging on.
~shhhhh.. no one noes where i m n how ive been... cos no one cares..
the things i tell.
the things they say.
it doesnt tally.
it sways.
its like lies.
its like flies.
all i wish was to swat them.
and kick them into that dam.
see them drown and struggle.
jus like how they all made me.
i shud never have trusted their words.
i shud have based everything on my own judgement.
but i trusted them too.
which is wad made me walk the wrong path.
this wrong choice.
a mistake made.
makes me realise.
i have to turn to myself at all times.
in the darkest hours of my broken life.
this is wher i found the reality.
the true things that lingered within this soul.
which i have never realize till i made mistakes.
i shud have based everything on my own views.
and not hers.
cos i noe him too.
i was close to him too.
but tings are meant to be.
things are fated in this.
we strive to fight for wad we wan.
we fight and long to get wad we need.
we all noe the difference between a need and want.
seriously now.
i need and want it back badly.
with it. i am myself.
without it.
im jus a living dead corpse.
he doesnt noe.
cos im hiding in this cave of mine.
im fading from this wonder world.
this lil fantasy of mine.
got crashed.
and im tryna build it all up again..
once more..
im tryna learn from this again..
another year..
i hope not..
its tough. but im still hanging on.
~shhhhh.. no one noes where i m n how ive been... cos no one cares..
